Well, after my doctors appointment on Oct 21st it seems like it took a day or two before I got the call to schedule surgery and when the nurse said "how about November 2nd" reality came crashing down on me.
Scheduled surgery date: Nov 2nd 2011 at 1pm
It's just under a week until my surgery and with each day I get more and more freaked out. I keep telling people it's like being told someone is going to break your leg next week and it's going hurt really bad. Which makes you over think everything, especially the fact that you will be in pain and wont be able to walk for 6 weeks. Usually when I tell people this, it shuts them up and gets them thinking and puts perspective of what it's like preparing for surgery like this.
So yeah, today I'm feeling scared not about the surgery itself, but more about just being disabled. My husband always asks me why I need to be in control of things and I need to learn how to let go sometimes. Well, this will be letting go, but it doesn't make it any easier.
All day at work today I began making this huge list of things I need to do before I'm disabled...i mean surgery. You see, all i keep thinking about is not being able to stand on two feet for several weeks and it freaks me out. I will deal with it, but yeah I got a long list of things to do in the next five days and the mission is to not stress. Luckily the Internet sells just about anything and I have ordered alot of stuff. I got a memory foam wedge pillow, a OnlyOne Crutch (just google it), a Shower Chair, began creating a bedside stash, and i definitely need to get a pedicure asap!
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